100 Happy Days – Day 19 (a day late)
Went to visit my aunt. Haven’t been to that house in ages. Had a nice afternoon.
(will post today’s later)
Did my obligatory job application today. (Unemployment requires it.) Feeling really nervous. I get jumpy every time I see a new message in my inbox. I am afraid the phone will ring. I want this over. And then I get scared if, on the VERY off chance, that it is decided in my favor, that they’ll appeal again. I want to be finished with my former employer. I wasn’t a fan of them before, but this is making me truly hate them.
I am sick and tired of this fear. And the feeling that I am a disappointment. It’s weird. I want this week to pass really fast because I want it finished, but I am so scared that I don’t want thursday to come at all.
Feel like crawling into a ball and never coming out.