100 Happy Days – Day 33
Nice walk with my mom and my dog Rose (my mom even went along the sand and up the hills)
I am feeling torn. I do want a new job, but when I think about it I get scared. I hate feeling this way, but I don’t know what to do about it. I am so afraid every time my phone rings. Honestly I don’t know what to do.
I have a feeling that the jobs that I actually want (one is an office clerk – just filing etc) I will not even be considered for because I am “overqualified”. I applied for the job didn’t I? I even made a note that I’d be willing to take a lower salary. I do not want a demanding job. I want something I can just go in and do and then go home and not be insanely stressed every day. I put enough stress on myself so I do not want a stressful job. My stomach goes in knots whenever I think about it. I feel that by doing this I am letting myself down and letting my family down (even though they don’t know that I’m feeling this way)
Just scared. (and tired of being scared but I don’t know what to do about it)