100 Happy Days – Day 97
Finished my aunt’s Christmas present today – a pillow slipcover with a penguin applique on it. All handsewn.
Really not feeling the job hunt because I’m afraid I’ll get a call. I don’t want to find a job now. It sounds really bad, but I want to spend the holidays in peace. This is the first time in a long time that I am looking forward to the holidays – even the preparation. I am looking forward to baking cookies (it had become a chore because I was so tired and stressed after work that I just did it because people expected cookies and candies) I want to enjoy this season without the stress and anxiety that has been almost ever-present in my life for several years.
Makes me want to scream sometimes. I feel like I’m doing something wrong (not really looking) but at the same time it is really the right thing for me right now. I need this calm and happiness.