I am scared out of my mind to find a new job. I could understand being nervous, but I am so scared I feel like I want to throw up every time the phone rings. I don’t want them to call. My unemployment benefits are running out so I know I need to find something.
I don’t think I could every work retail – I need to have a consistent schedule. But even for anything I am just so scared. I have never really had a great place to work, so I don’t even really have any positive associations with the workplace. I don’t want to go back into that kind of environment.
I don’t know what to do about it. I know my parents wouldn’t understand. I just keep bottling it up. It’s like it is looming over me so I sometimes I even have trouble enjoying days. The other night I actually cried myself to sleep.
I hate this!