I got an email tonight (that I had obviously received at some point this afternoon) about an interview for a place I applied for this morning . I didn’t particular want the job (but I have to apply). And I saw the address in the footer of the email was right by where I used to work. Felt like I was going to throw up. I can’t do it. Not there. I’m not telling anyone because yeah I probably should do it, but I just can’t bring myself to do it. Totally scared and no prep time.
I have it here because I need to get it out of my own head. I know this is wrong, yet I cannot bring myself to go through with it.
Does this make me a bad person? Why can’t things just go according to the plan in my head just once?