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I got an email tonight (that I had obviously received at some point this afternoon) about an interview for a place I applied for this morning .  I didn’t particular want the job (but I have to apply).  And I saw the address in the footer of the email was right by where I used to work.  Felt like I was going to throw up.  I can’t do it.  Not there.  I’m not telling anyone because yeah I probably should do it, but I just can’t bring myself to do it.  Totally scared and no prep time.
I have it here because I need to get it out of my own head.  I know this is wrong, yet I cannot bring myself to go through with it.

Does this make me a bad person?  Why can’t things just go according to the plan in my head just once?