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Sigh… Feeling kind of sad lately.  I know I shouldn’t.  I have a great family – a nice house… I just applied for a new dog.  But today I just felt like crying all day.  My unemployment is up next week.  I do have savings, but still…    I wish I never had to work again.

I want to do something with my life, but I have no idea what.  I find myself wishing I were younger so this indecision and confusion wouldn’t be so “wrong”.  It seems like people my age and younger are getting on with their lives (careers, families, etc) and I’m still sitting here not knowing what to do.

I just feel lost all the time.  I feel like I have to put on a smile and laugh and be happy because no one wants to see the real me… the confused, terrified person that I am inside.